(10-14-2020, 01:00 PM)Daze Wrote: It seems that it would be worthwhile to reflect on the trajectory from which the sense of shame and inadequacy arise within you.
By what standard are you measuring yourself with and why is it necessary?
Is there shame in feeling that you do not see the Absolute, that your not feeling it is somehow an indication of being unworthy?
Daze
Somehow in the latter part of 2018 i started getting a little paranoid and weird. The onset of the psychosis i guess. Before that i would say i wad kind of a wild human being.
And just the lifestyle that eventual psychosis had resulted in kind of robbed me of my confidence.
Its just that over the top insecure feeling i started to have when i'm around people. 2019 was really the year except the spiritual high was when i had developed the insecurity.
I'm just worried that my reality maybe obscured by drugs.