Life, Drugs and self-destruction

[Monica]

I can't possibly explain what it's like... when you know so much, when you know this isn't the way things are meant to be, and yet you physically have NO control over a destructive habit, I've attempted to quit thousands of times, the depression, the hopelesness, is literally suicidal, if I don't have a substance to get me by, I can't exist within this reality at the moment.

Has anybody here gone through this? It's not nearly as easy as saying 'meditate when you have cravings', to me, being trapped in it, it feels like in order to escape I would need a giant time-space catalyst, some higher self intervention of unimaginable magnitude, because as far as my little self in my 3rd density body goes, I'm about to give up after nearly a decade of self-destruction I CANNOT stop.

Holykaust, I am so sorry to hear of such an intense struggle! I cannot fully understand your struggle, but I have had a taste of it, when I was addicted to amphetamines at age 19. I remember clearly how the drug seemed to have so much power over me, despite my best intentions. So I can only imagine how it must be for you, amplified manyfold!

One of my favorite books is Wonderland Avenue, in which Danny Sugerman (manager of The Doors) tells of his addictions. His story sounds very similar to yours. He lost everything, and watched his friends die, one by one, and still could not stop. In the book, he described in graphic detail the physical effects of the various drugs and their consequences, so I felt almost as though I'd experienced it vicariously. His story is poignant and compelling. So between my own experience, watching boyfriends with addictions, and that book, I grasp the seriousness of your situation.

The suggestions for meditation, shift in attitude, getting clear on what you want, etc. are all good, but you say you have already been doing all that. I believe you, because I remember doing all those things, not with addictions, but in other areas of my life, and ended up concluding that sometimes the answer is simply physiological, though the physiological solution won't appear until you've already done those things. Each is an important step in the process.

Thus, I would like to offer an alternative suggestion.

Any addiction, whether it be meth, heroin, or some other illicit drug, or legal drugs like caffeine, sugar, etc., imprints neuropathways in the brain. Even substances that are not considered physically addictive, like pot, imprints these neuropathways.

Even though a decision is made to change, thoughts and their subsequent actions tend to follow the path of least resistance; ie., the existing neuropathways.

Even something as relatively benign as pot, can become a fierce opponent, when trying to change those neuropathways.

Harder drugs add a physiological component that reinforce the neuropathways even more.

The problem is, that neurotransmitters in the brain are fed by neuropeptides, and neuropeptides are sorely lacking in the modern diet. Furthermore, environmental pollutants, pesticides, etc. can be stored in the fatty tissues of the body, and the brain has a lot of fatty tissue. Children with ADD/ADHD have been found to have ammonia on the brain, because of all the chemicals they've been exposed to. In addition, fluoride calcifies the pineal gland, thus blocking that chakra. Furthermore, the modern diet is lacking in trace elements that act as spark plugs for the body. End result is that the brain isn't functioning as efficiently as it should. What this translates to is that, had you been living in a clean environment, will power might have been sufficient to conquer these addictions. But, because of all these added complications, it's requiring superhuman will power, to get past what is physiologically the equivalent of a brick wall.

There is a superfood, called aphanizomen flos-aqua, a type of wild bluegreen algae, that has been proven to create new neuropathways in the brain. It crosses the blood-brain barrier in seconds, and is rich in essential fatty acids (important for overcoming depression) as well as neuropeptides (which feed the neurotransmitters in the brain and thus pave the way for new neuropathways).

From what I understand, the way it works is that, after we get clear on what we want to change (ie. after we've done our meditation, gotten clarity on the root issues, etc. in other words learned from the catalyst), then the physical solution will appear. Not before.

Physical substances don't fix anything, in my belief. The work must come from within, in the form of learning from the catalyst, before the solution can be found (no matter what the problem is). This explains why remedies and medicines don't work for everyone. Some are ready to let go of the illness (or addiction or whatever) and some aren't. The physical remedies will work only for those who are ready to let go of the problem.

At the same time, once the catalyst has achieved its intended purpose, sometimes a physical component is necessary to let the solution stick. Thus, when the person is ready for the physical solution, it will work, now that the root cause (learning from the catalyst) has been achieved. This is why the natural remedy might have been there all along, but we either didn't find it, or weren't receptive to it, until we were ready to fully utilize it and let go of the problem.

From your post, it sounds like you are at this point. Bluegreen algae isn't a cure-all. But it works in profound ways, for those who are ready for it. I used to call it Rebirthing in a Bottle because of the profound results I've seen in people.

A few examples:

1. My friend Trisha was diagnosed as manic-depressive with ‘homicidal and suicidal tendencies’. When she got on the Omega Sun (blue green algae brain food) in addition to the Alpha Sun, she stabilized and quit throwing skillets at her children. (She had already been eating plenty of organic veggies, etc. for quite some time, btw, as well as having had colon cleansing and lots of other therapies.)
2. My husband's student Dustin tried to kill himself 4 times. When he started taking both Alpha Sun and Omega Sun, he no longer had suicidal depression.
3. I've known numerous people who reported relief from cravings in general, whether of coffee, sugar, cigarettes, or weed. I don't know of anyone with addictions as severe as yours, but it might be worth a try, since it seems to help with addictions in general, as well as with getting to the root cause of what makes the substance desirable in the first place: depression.

There are many brands on the market, but only 1 that makes a concentrated 'brain food' version of the algae: Simplexity. It is the brain food version of the algae that has such powerful effects on the brain and has been reported to alleviate depression. I've witnessed this many times! When I first tried it myself, it was as though the mud had been wiped from my eyes, and I was on top of a mountain, and could see far into the distance. The clarity was astounding! Children with ADD/ADHD, autism, etc. have even gotten amazing results. Virtually everyone experiences a heightened sense of well-being.

It is this heightened sense of well-being that you seem to be searching for. It's what every addict is searching for, but can only attain temporarily with drugs.

Consuming bluegreen algae isn't trading one drug for another. It's feeding your brain what it should have been getting all along, from food, but hasn't. Some people are just more susceptible to the ravages of our toxic society than others. The nutrients in bluegreen algae are in the category of getting a good night's sleep: something you need to function at full capacity.

Bluegreen algae is food, and in fact is the single most nutrient-dense food on the planet. It's very primal, and has been shown to help restore the original DNA pattern. It's also a powerful detoxifier, so it can probably assist you when you quit.

The brain food is called Omega Sun. Don't take it by itself. It must be used with the whole algae, called Alpha Sun. Omega Sun taken by itself can trigger emotional detox. They must be taken together.

Full Disclosure: For the record, I'm not trying to sell you anything. I don't make any $$ from this, though I can get it for you at my cost if you decide to try it. Just pm me if you'd like more info.

I've seen this algae work wonders, so I offer this as a suggestion.

Please don't give up. There is hope! As the discoverer of this wild superfood used to say, Hope is a Molecule. There is a scientific basis for this.

Another suggestion is to start running. The runner's high is very addictive, but is a healthy addiction.

And, another idea is to do a juice fast. I've fasted for 2 weeks at a time, many times. I was able to quit meat, pot, sugar and alcohol all at the same time, after a 2-week fast, because I felt so high I didn't want those substances any more. The high from a fast is incredible! But again, it's a healthy high, and is accompanied by spiritual insights. It will also detoxify your body from the drugs and thus help clear those old patterns.

Please let us know how you're doing. You are here among friends and we care about you!

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