Sexuality

[meadow-foreigner]

I’ve been thinking about sexuality lately.

I’ve recently split up with my partner of 3 years. I feel sad sometimes but when it comes down to it I am just so grateful for the learning/teaching and experience it offered.

I’ve never been like, a hugely sexual person. I always felt a bit repressed in that way. I’ve just.... never explored that really.

And I don’t necessarily mean exploring positions or different partners, im really trying to understand sexuality on a deeper level. It is such a force in our lives and I feel I am beginning to see (and experience) that.

Whenever I would see someone in public that I felt that magnetic attraction to, I would stifle it. Even when I wasn’t in a relationship. Now though, I can feel that magnetic “thing” and sort of just sit with it.

It’s like a different world almost. Like there’s power there, yknow?

Yes. You see, human species are in an unprecedented and kind of groundbreaking position in the Creation, for regardless of "service polarity" there is the gender polarity, which, obviously, has nothing to do with chromosomes.

Human beings are designed in such a way that, in spite of having the Infinite within (and therefore being Whole), they are also prone to connectivity. Most people are scared of that because of their taught roles in this decrepit societal system.

What is sexuality? Why is it so powerful, and what purpose does it serve in our lives? Not even the act necessarily, but the energy behind it.

Sexuality can be summarized, from this current 3D/4D perspective, as energetic exchange between beings in the Creation. As you well know, this exchange can occur on the mental, emotional, spiritual and/or physical level and isn't constrained to physical intercourse.

It is powerful because everything is flowing; and to resist such flow is futile. When you open yourself to it, the whole Infinite unfolds to you.
The purpose? Let's take a look at the Internet that we all have been using. It is but the tangibilization in the physical world of a phenomena that occurs all the time from an energetic perspective. You both upload and download data and information to the web; you might choose a fixed or variable identity number; you might even present yourself as you please, for such is the variability of the intangible. The possibilities of learning and enhancement of The Creation through sexuality are really limitless and depending only on the beings' self-imposed limitations.

I just feel as though the whole topic is obscured to me. Sexual energy is a powerful thing, obviously, but I have trouble understanding it on a deep level. Maybe I’m thinking about it too much.

It’s just, in those moments where I can feel that sexual energy without stifling it, there is a real sort of power I feel in me. And I’m curious what that’s all about.

Idk, I’ve been missing a huge part of the picture and I am wanting to explore that now.

The huge part of the picture is that you interact sexually with people all the time, regardless of your monogamist affiliations. Most people, of course, don't really permit themselves to be open sexually to other people than their "partners", which is a waste.

Reading recommendations are appreciated too

Thanks all. Typing on my phone, sorry for any misspellings

Why do you want to read a book about something as personal as your Self? There goes the rational mind trying to compile a manual about the Infinite, unbeknownst to the fact that by trying to assert control, it limits the scope of the Infinite Possibilities that exist in the manifestation of your Self.

Your book is You. The language that it is written is emotional and is transcendent. The book is open as long as you're breathing. Don't get stuck on the same page.

In the previous density, Ra says the Creator explored the dynamics of mover and moved. I also believe this forms some fundamental dynamics in this universe. I see our relationship with the creation as a type of push and pull, a reciprocal give and take, as we are created and then act ourselves to co-create.

That's close, but lacks more clarification. There is no absolute pull nor absolute push in the sense that one doesn't exclude or nullify the other. When we talk about the dynamics of the energetic flow we talk about consciousness, gravity, information (light) and Creation (love).

One might think at a black hole, the epitome of the service to self mentality, and think that it only pulls to its core, giving nothing in return.
One might think at Betelgeuse and think that it only radiates energy outwards, pulling nothing to its Self.

However, black holes do "emit", or process and return, energy back to the Universe;
Stars do pull celestial bodies to its gravitational field;

Therefore, the terms mover and moved are but halves of an ongoing dynamic in the Universe, and in the Self.

There is a lot we can offer as beings in Confusion, for we may act in spontaneous and unpredictable ways, mixing both dark and light, thereby enriching the experience of creation.

I wouldn't term dark as opposed to light; because light is all that there is. Without a mathematical structure, The Creation itself wouldn't exist.

The thing is, human beings are always a window through which energies pass all the time, whether one is conscious about it or not. In this sense, sexuality occurs all the time; though the illusion of division between beings might appeal otherwise to the purely physical senses.

Just as we make calls upon the creation, the creation also calls upon us, and we cannot help but feel moved. And sometimes the more we can utilise, the more we are given. It is both a gift and a duty, thereby we find that interplay of  ecstasy and frustration within our sexuality.

There's no frustration in a purely aware and conscious — and harmonic — sexual exchange. The frustration component only exists when there's an imbalance in the energetic intercourse, and one being believes to be dominant over other being (which is a false belief in its core).

In my estimation - the rising within of sexual energy is that pull that we feel from the Logos, that is moving us ever closer towards our evolution. This is represented in the physical (in the DNA) as symbolic acts of procreation, and then represented in the personal as the forming of relational bonds that also have significance in society ... and then moving forward into seeking that deep connection we all crave, where Self meets Self.

Procreation is a karmic trap.

The gross physical senses are also a karmic trap, designed to keep human beings addicted to the pigsty that is the rather simpleton buffet that is this purely physical existence.