Sexuality

[BrotherInWaiting]

I’ve been thinking about sexuality lately.

I’ve recently split up with my partner of 3 years. I feel sad sometimes but when it comes down to it I am just so grateful for the learning/teaching and experience it offered.

I’ve never been like, a hugely sexual person. I always felt a bit repressed in that way. I’ve just.... never explored that really.

And I don’t necessarily mean exploring positions or different partners, im really trying to understand sexuality on a deeper level. It is such a force in our lives and I feel I am beginning to see (and experience) that.

Whenever I would see someone in public that I felt that magnetic attraction to, I would stifle it. Even when I wasn’t in a relationship. Now though, I can feel that magnetic “thing” and sort of just sit with it.

It’s like a different world almost. Like there’s power there, yknow?

What is sexuality? Why is it so powerful, and what purpose does it serve in our lives? Not even the act necessarily, but the energy behind it.

I just feel as though the whole topic is obscured to me. Sexual energy is a powerful thing, obviously, but I have trouble understanding it on a deep level. Maybe I’m thinking about it too much.

It’s just, in those moments where I can feel that sexual energy without stifling it, there is a real sort of power I feel in me. And I’m curious what that’s all about.

Idk, I’ve been missing a huge part of the picture and I am wanting to explore that now.

Reading recommendations are appreciated too

Thanks all. Typing on my phone, sorry for any misspellings

It's like simultaneously one of the most fun, emotionally satisfying experiences we can have here, a kind of food for the sad spirit, and a repugnant bio-act, too. *shrug*