Life, Drugs and self-destruction

[BlatzAdict]

i know this is going to sound crazy but those drugs ARE your catalyst.. i did drugs too. but i never did heroin.. i've done pot, acid, shrooms, speed, coke, ecstacy, opium...

i used to be part of the raver scene because the motto was PLUR
peace love unity and respect.
so i started doing ecstacy and going to night clubs and dancing all night when i was 16.
then i grew out of it because it was more about the drugs than it was about the peace and love and unity and respect .

we are gravitated towards subcultures that promote love, or some kind of peace in some way. thats why i became a punk, because i thought it would help me change the world, improve society... i was wrong there too.


i quit everything.. i still smoke cigarettes, but i smoke e cigarettes now because it has nicotine but not the smoke associated with smoking which has carcinogens.

once in a while i will smoke pot..
i used to smoke more that is until i started going to school for kung fu... as a way to discipline myself..
so you are not alone.
when u are out of body, it feels like you are stoned, your whole body feels like it is stoned.

when we get stoned, it's cause instinctively we miss that feeling of feeling connected and feeling that love constantly.
the point is learning to feel that love, even when u don't feel it.

yes hardly anyone else does drugs is the impression i get from the forums... but i wanted to write this to tell u, u are not alone.
and i understand the pain u feel from the world around u

but u have to learn not to become a victim to your own emotions. you have to learn to stand in your own light.. and all those drugs will fall away on their own.
but it's not easy.. we chose a harder life because when we incarnated we thought we were hardcore in the light, we thought we were bad ass...

so the fact that u made it this far without killing yourself.. congratulations, u are fucking hard core!
ummm i haven't said anything about how to quit so much because everyone else is giving really great advice for quitting..

if u want my take on quitting just let me know.

but yea...

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When she got on the Omega Sun (blue green algae brain food) in addition to the Alpha Sun, she stabilized and quit throwing skillets at her children. (She had already been eating plenty of organic veggies, etc. for quite some time, By the way, as well as having had colon cleansing and lots of other therapies.)

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umm monica can u show me where to get blue sun and alpha sun.. i tried googling it.. it wants me to make an account.. when i tried to make an account it said i need a sponsor number.. wth?
is there some wierd u gotta be in the club to be part of the club thing going on?

i found this website :
http://www.simplexityhealth.com/simplexi...ga-sun.jsp

but yea maybe i have the wrong website?

sigh.

looks like no one really gave in my opinion advice that was to the point hahaha. I tend to speak very direct and very blunt. I also tend to just throw up information.

I knew I had to quit the higher drugs on the list cause I knew they wouldn't help me in the long run. I kept drinking, pot smoking and smoking cigarettes. Hardly a drinker, more just a pothead. The thing I kept telling myself is at least this is natural

I still don't see a problem with occaisional smoking.

I'd suggest to join a Shaolin Kung Fu school, and the determination it teaches u, will teach u to channel that determination to quitting, and doing something better instead.

I've been blessed with a loving teacher who always emphasizes spirit in movement.. Without it, kung fu looks dull, is less effective, and not as much of a work out. Thats why so many american kung fu teachers... well yea, they always forget that part. the determination...

somehow I think that is somewhat linked to strict and abusive childhoods and it kind of beats that into u.. but then that is a whole other lesson to learn, and values to overcome..

I could write a whole other post on this if u would like me to elaborate. I'm just starting to wake up myself.

but i don't even have to ask u to believe me, I know you know what I'm saying even if it's on an unconcious level..
I'm going to say this very crass because this is just who i am

YOU, incarnated into this situation because you KNEW you were bad ass enough to handle it.. hell look you are on this forum asking for help, you are already on the path, seriously. I kid you not, I have always known this even at the brink of suicide, that I knew I would always get through it, cause I'm so of the light.

It's because we're so of the light.... for our own benefit spiritually, and for the benefit of others who might stray along this difficult path so that we may be there for others.

You ARE going to handle it, the fact that you have a higher self is proof that u have in the future... know it, be it...

i'm sorry forum guys... but i have to say it this way.. YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT!!!!!!!! I know you realize this on a deep level, it is what is the message in your heart, and it's why you've been able to keep moving forward.

I have lived through much to be able to say that, and even then I knew I'd be out there somewhere saying my story just like this, to help someone just like you.

And you will do the same... you are destined for it, your spirit guide knows this, your higher self knows this, and your subconcious mind knows this.

I know this.... that's why i can say...
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT.