Life, Drugs and self-destruction

[Monica]

i know this is going to sound crazy but those drugs ARE your catalyst..

Exactly! This situation, like any other, is a catalyst with lessons to be learned. When the lessons have been learned, then it's time to let go of it.

then i grew out of it because it was more about the drugs than it was about the peace and love and unity and respect .

Echoes of the 60s hippies!

we are gravitated towards subcultures that promote love, or some kind of peace in some way. thats why i became a punk, because i thought it would help me change the world, improve society... i was wrong there too.

Same reason a lot of Wanderers became hippies and got caught up in the drug scene.

i used to smoke more that is until i started going to school for kung fu... as a way to discipline myself..

As the wife of a kung fu instructor, I totally agree that kung fu is a great way to discipline oneself, and a 'positive' addiction (like running).

so you are not alone.
when u are out of body, it feels like you are stoned, your whole body feels like it is stoned.

Greater highs await us! Drug highs are just teasers by comparison.

when we get stoned, it's cause instinctively we miss that feeling of feeling connected and feeling that love constantly.

Yes!

yes hardly anyone else does drugs is the impression i get from the forums... but i wanted to write this to tell u, u are not alone.
and i understand the pain u feel from the world around u

Actually, you might be surprised:

Life on Planet Earth > The Spiritual Use of Entheogens

but it's not easy.. we chose a harder life because when we incarnated we thought we were hardcore in the light, we thought we were bad a$$...

I love your perspective!

so the fact that u made it this far without killing yourself.. congratulations, u are fucking hard core!

I second that!

umm monica can u show me where to get blue sun and alpha sun.. i tried googling it.. it wants me to make an account.. when i tried to make an account it said i need a sponsor number.. wth?
is there some wierd u gotta be in the club to be part of the club thing going on?

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I'd suggest to join a Shaolin Kung Fu school, and the determination it teaches u, will teach u to channel that determination to quitting, and doing something better instead.

Great advice!

I've been blessed with a loving teacher who always emphasizes spirit in movement.. Without it, kung fu looks dull, is less effective, and not as much of a work out. Thats why so many american kung fu teachers... well yea, they always forget that part. the determination...

Very true!

YOU, incarnated into this situation because you KNEW you were bad a$$ enough to handle it.. hell look you are on this forum asking for help, you are already on the path, seriously. I kid you not, I have always known this even at the brink of suicide, that I knew I would always get through it, cause I'm so of the light.

It's because we're so of the light.... for our own benefit spiritually, and for the benefit of others who might stray along this difficult path so that we may be there for others.

You ARE going to handle it, the fact that you have a higher self is proof that u have in the future... know it, be it...

i'm sorry forum guys... but i have to say it this way.. YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT!!!!!!!! I know you realize this on a deep level, it is what is the message in your heart, and it's why you've been able to keep moving forward.

I have lived through much to be able to say that, and even then I knew I'd be out there somewhere saying my story just like this, to help someone just like you.

And you will do the same... you are destined for it, your spirit guide knows this, your higher self knows this, and your subconcious mind knows this.

I know this.... that's why i can say...
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT.

YES!!! Holykaust, I hop you find value in these wise words!