Consciousness Experiment : 365 Days of Dreams

[Sacred Fool]

  
QUESTION

How lucid is "lucid?"  At this very moment I am very aware that I am aware as I very deliberately compose this brief message, but through most of the foregone day I had no interest in whether or not I was aware of my waking state as I went from one activity to another.  I consider myself lucid now, but was I lucid earlier?

I ask this because there have been various times in dreams when I have become aware of my dreaming state.  I say, "Hey, I'm dreaming!"  And then I go right back into being wrapped up in the activity of the dream with no interest in my discovery.

Uh, I guess I'm wondering what the larger point is--even though my train of thought seems quite lacking in lucidity.

I have this distinctly queer feeling now, almost as if I'm struggling to awaken myself............  Or maybe I'm feeling dizzy as though I were chasing myself around in a mirror?  I'm feeling like Edward Bear who just can't understand such things, even when his friend, Christopher Robin, explains them to him. 

Oh, bother!