Messengers of Love

[Sacred Fool]

But it is in finding the ability to be self-sufficient in where true power lies. Just as Ra states how catalyst is intended so that we may discover "the self as all-sufficient Creator containing all that there is and full of joy." (34.6)

Before you arise from your bed, call for help. Your guidance system cannot begin to act actively in your life unless you call it, not just once but every day and every moment.

Wisdom has a tendency to create within an entity the feeling that he or she is powerful and self-sufficient.

The Creatrix is self-sufficient, indeed, but the small self is not, evidently.  There's an awkward element being touched upon in this thread regarding how much light to take into oneself and how much darkness.  Taking in darkness, taking on the dark, can engender pleasant feelings of power, self possession, the wisdom of having "knowledge of the game" and all that.  As you say, one can learn much about self from all that. 

At the same time it can become its own untidy little sinkhole in this sense.  Access to full-flowing self-awareness in the higher energy centers requires basically all of one's spiritual energy to be employed in this effort, and this is assisted by availing oneself of all available resources to support this upward flow of being (i.e., seeking support from spirit guides, angels and the like).  And it is retarded when significant amounts of energy are used to take in or take on the darkness (because significant amounts of energy are therefore unavailable for the upward journey of seeking fuller consciousness).

Of course, this is not an either/or proposition, particularly when one finds within oneself, let's say, some significant propensity to groove with powerful feeling vibrations.  In that case one must surely learn about what one is given to find within.  My only concern here (in posting this thread)--for any to take or leave--is to note that accepting maximal spiritual help (as measured by your own standards) is a very productive way to move closer to experiencing one's own true vibration.  This might be an important reminder for those whose goal is to be of service to the Creatrix by vibrating as your deepest being and are hoping to move in that direction efficiently.