02-11-2011, 01:49 PM
(02-11-2011, 09:46 AM)Ankh Wrote: After being placed and raised in a really negative STS environment I learned to become STS myself. But boy oh boy, was I a poor student! What got me to change the polarity? Love of course. I felt deep love for another self. And decided that I couldn't be that person anymore. I wanted to be a "better person" and slowly but surely began to work myself back to the polarity where I belong. Was it worth it? Was all that suffer and pain worth the inner knowing that even in a blind state I am STO? I don't know. Honestly I don't understand it. There is no wisdom applied here right now.To me, this is more important than the rest of this thread. I can't get worked up about details of so long ago, although I quickly say that others may get something worthwhile out of it.
When Jesus walked the Earth, having been brought up a very observant Jew, he was snared by the elite because he did the awful thing of healing on the Sabbath. When they accused him, he calmly replied that the sabbath was made for man, not man for the sabbath.
The elite had dedicated itself to the minutiae of Jewish law, just as some of us here are examining these historic details, trying to sort out the truth from the deception. Again, that's fine by me. It is critiquing the efforts of Ra, a somemplex higher than we are.
Ankh, we are living the 3rd density life where wisdom is in relatively short supply. I applaud your forthright struggle back to STO, and hope you can get comfortable in the lifestyle. IMO it will serve you and all on the planet well.