My Wanderer's Story

[Brandon Gwinn]

Hey guys. Bless all of u with the   love  and  light  of our  infinite creator. Here's my wanderer's story, my  story of  awakening.  I  was born  into a fundamental Christian, very loving family in Oak Hill, WV  in  November of 1992.  Around 5 years old is when the scales   of childhood innocence  began to  fall off my eyes as i got out into the neighborhood  and  got  amongst the other kids. I started  picking up  some of their delinquent ways, and  eventually noticed a tension between my good upbringing and  who  i was  slowly becoming. When i was 12, we moved near  Ashland, KY and this completely threw off my balance.  Around 16 years old,  after going through social awkwardness, living for other people, and not having any identity of  my own, I started spiraling into my  dark night of the soul. I started drinking, smoking pot, and fell into a great depression. I started asking all  the big questions like who am i, whats my  purpose, and whats the point to all this. i had   tried to be faithful as a christian many times but kept going back and forth  between backsliding and recommitting. I knew i couldnt do it  on my own, so i gave up and  pretty much  told god that if he wanted me, he'd have to come  and get me. after this i really  started getting  to a dark place.   i was watching mass  shooting and killing videos on the internet, and was convinced the  economy  was  about to collapse carrying social order along   with  it. I became a doomsday prepper, buying  supplies. I  had no regard  for humanity any more and  became completely numb, apathetic and a  bit unstable. I thought  i was running out of time before the anticipated  collapse, and i thought i needed more supplies, so i got the  bright idea to rob this gas  station. I went in there fired a gun, got the money, and took off on some back roads.  before i knew it about 10  cops were on my  tail in a high speed chase. i pulled  over after  a while and  gave up cause there was nowhere to  go. they cuffed me, threw me in the back of the  cruiser and sent me to jail. After a few  nights of getting my  bearings, i found a  bible and began  to  flip through it. i could  tell god  was calling me back to him. The next night as this kept  working on me i had one of the most  profound experiences of my  life. That night, i was laying down  and everything just started to hit me. I broke down  in  tears  and began to cry out to god. i had hit  rock bottom. i  felt  so unworthy and so small and begged god for  just a sliver of mercy, for help, for something. then in the middle of my cry  for help, i heard three quiet but powerful  words come into  my thoughts  that would  change my  life  forever, "It'll be alright." As soon as i heard  these words it felt like a  bucket  of warm tingling oil poured  over my entire body from  head to toe and i  felt  such  a  peace as i had never  felt before in my  life. i knew  i was in god's hands now and everything was going to be okay. In the following  weeks, months, and  a  couple  years, i became like a  dry sponge for his word(which   at that time to me was the bible) i  learned  so much and grew so much and it was great. After about 5 years of  this i had grew to a point  where  i felt grounded and well rounded  enough to go out  and  meet other people of different beliefs to converse with them  and  hopefully win them  over to the christian side. Turns out i would  be the one who was in for a suprise. I met this one guy who brought to  me a message from the  bible from a whole nother point of view about the I AM  statements of jesus.  Whatever it was he  told me about his, pretty much  that we are god and all is god and that  our purpose is simply to be, clicked with my soul and  set me free into a whole nother level of spirituality that i call conscious being. This set me seeking upon  another  path for my new paradigm of truth. After   2 years of this seeking to no avail, i came across two books by michael newton called journey of souls and destiny of  souls, which really   opened my eyes. Then not too long  after that, i came across the law  of one  books by L/L Research and i had found my new home. The material resonated  with my soul like a radio tower. After taking in the information from the law  of one, i wrote L/L and they sent me a list of their books that they offer. I got and  read all these and it just added to the sense of  bliss  from uncovering  blessed truth. Growing and maturing with  the confederation philosophy, i finally got released  from prison  in the Kentucky  DOC after  serving 10 years. I got out  march 13, 2021. and now here i am writing this story. I'm just now beginning to read L/L's full archive of  channeling transcripts and guess that it'll  take me about two years to get through  it  all  if i read 3 a day, but i'm so looking forward to it. The impact that L/L has had on my life has been megatonic.  I am so thankful for what they  are, what they have become and the super  great  resource  that they  have provided for our planet. They   are a bright lighthouse of love  and light for so  many.  Bless  u all truly and greatly in the  love  and light of our one infinite creator. blessed be. Thanks!