A question for the advanced

[Indiken]

you can learn to challenge them and ask them to show their colours

Thank You, Sir.
I think I do want not challenge anyone, I have many challenges in my life besides.
The main challenge I face is that it seems I cannot fit in the society.
I cannot find common ground with the most people.
I feel different.
I responded to this with thinking that others are better than me.
This gives me negative emotions and doubt.
To think that "good" being can only be "good" to you is unwise from my perspective.
Because the interest can differ.
I think growing is unavoidable whatever one do.
For example about an hour ago, I had an intership discussion.
There were peoplo who saw me for the first time.
The first response of them was "laught".
I think they see who I am, but do not uderstand this consciously.
And they do not like it.
Soon, I think, some of them will be fearing me and feel I am superior.
I do not like this game at all.
Thats why I like to be alone.
It is much easer to live then.