A question for the advanced

[Sacred Fool]

There is mentioned one way to balance - "The key to balance may then be seen in the unstudied, spontaneous, and honest response of entities toward experiences, thus using experience to the utmost". Now writing, I come to idea, that I would prefer the experience of events and contemplation on the experience instead of just manipulating the energy centers to balance them.

There are other balancing exercises mentioned in the material, but this is certainly a good one to emphasize if you feel more comfortable starting here.  Really, one ends up using whatever seems best at the time.

In essence, they all involve looking inside to see what's going on in there.  The more you study this, the deeper your understanding becomes...just like anything else.  For example, if something triggers, say, anger in you, then trace that inwards to see where it leads your awareness.  You may feel it, for instance, in your gut.  Then observe that, talk to it, try to learn from it because that sensation may lead you to other feelings or deeper emotions such as fear or to memories of this or that.  You will find that much of your conscious awareness is limited to very basic operations.

The basic idea is to move from acting at the behest of pre-programmed responses in order to find the seat of your awareness.  It's in there somewhere.......

Of course, very early on you will discover much resistance to this process.  This is all part of what it takes to move along.  The resistance can speak to you if you befriend it and respect it.  If you track that inside (like hunting an animal), it will lead your consciousness to one thing or another which is asking for balance.  At the heart of the matter, all these things which push you and pull you internally are seeking your love.  Balance, in some sense, equals love...active, heartfelt love, not intellectual connection.