A question for the advanced

[Ohr Ein Sof]

Ok, I will say this.
I do have a desire to hurt others and myself. A huge desire. (Interestingly as I said this, I felt energy pressure in the sacrum).
The more I try to put this away, the more it returns back.
It is very deep, but I repress this.
When I have these thoughts, my third eye area feels strange.
I can handle this.
This continues many years.
If it continues forever I am ok with that.

It's possible that this is like hammering iron to make a useful tool. You want to hammer your self and your other-selves in order to iron out the impurities.

If that is the case, then it becomes a matter of finding a way of doing this same work that also happens to align with the Law of One in its more positive manifestations.

Hammering other self in order to iron out impurities?
Then you are speaking another language because hammering out another self's impurities speaks to altering their free will or breaking another's will. Perhaps they do not need oe even desire your hammering? There is no way that one could do this and it align with the Law of One. What you do to others you do to yourself and All others.
The positive manifestations of looking at the imperfection of others is to understand why you see it as an imperfection and why it seems to bother you. The other is your mirror to finding your hidden secrets about yourself. Hammering down on another will never bring you joy unless you are a sadist and that is not in line with the Law we are speaking.