What does "The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions" mean?

[rva_jeremy]

Confederation sources talk about karma as a kind of momentum. Polarizing service-to-others, we're trying to slow down that momentum and find the center point of forgiveness. As a metaphor, I'm thinking of when you're pushing somebody on a swing set, and you start to push less and less hard, slowly decelerating the swinging by becoming more gentle and using a lighter touch.

But polarizing service-to-self, I wonder if the goal is to instead use the momentum in an ever-accelerating manner. Instead of seeing the opportunities for balance that karma offers, folks on this path sees opportunities to "push the swing even higher" and using whatever pain, frustration, and agony that obtains in response as energy with which to hone one's resolve and will to power. Every opportunity to balance, by this thinking, is also an opportunity to further imbalance, right? And I wonder if this is a way that the STS path builds spiritual power in a way that, when intensified sufficiently, allows them equivalent access to harvest as opening the heart. In a way, it is a kind of use of the heart in the negative sense if it is seeking out greater and greater injury in precisely the same degree that we seek healing -- like using one's aversion to pain in the heart as a way to force the self to drink more deeply of it instead of seeking less pain.

This is all just speculation; the big problem talking about all this subject is that we're talking about an entire sense of self that is alien to what all of his, I imagine, have chosen or are on the way to choosing. To truly become that otherself who is polarizing negative might simply be too painful in third density beyond a certain threshold of detail -- in other words, we can become the other abstractly, but the more we understand the details of their desire, the more this might reflect discomfort in excess of what we as STO students can handle. Luckily, I don't think an intellectual model of this is very useful beyond a point that I'm sure all of us are near or past.