04-21-2021, 10:29 AM
I am struggling with how to proceed or not to proceed with a relationship with my ex-wife. We have been married twice and divorced twice over the past 20 years, spending as much time apart as together. Each of us say we love the other. She is not a seeker of the LOO and is not interested in hearing about it. I think I have been a seeker throughout this incarnation, but I became aware of it since our last divorce. It has been difficult for me to be in a relationship with anyone else because I am still in love with her. I am not currently in a relationship and as far as I know she is not as well. At least she has not verbalized to that she is. I have let her know that my desire is for us to be together. She tells me that she cannot handle that right now because she fears we will fall back in the same pattern and she is enjoying her freedom. I accept her feelings as valid and I think that regardless of how I feel about her or how she says she feels about me, given where she is at this space/time nexus, I have to find the strength to let her go, although I told her recently that I would never give up on us again. Any insight, PLEASE.