My struggle with the Choice, 2nd guessing.

[Minyatur]

So it's a bit of nostalgia that you are feeling.

Not very long ago I had a very strong experience of living the choice so to say. I felt deeply what was forsaken if I chose the Light and it made me feel a great struggle within. I felt the potentials of experience that could be had if I chose otherwise and I quite literally just felt that I wanted to be on both ends of this duality. In the end, I still chose the Light but part of myself was quite joyful to know that the Universe is not limited to this finite self in its experience.

Like you said, I think what I experienced touched nostalgia of already knowing that path, but it did not feel in alignment with the direction I am headed as of now as a self. Then again, if I really want on a deep level to explore more deeply the STS path, this switch is always doable from higher positive densities as, like Ra said, the further an entity has polarized the more easily it may change polarity.

Somewhat reminds me of when I quit cigarettes because I became utterly dissonant with them. I felt sorrowful in my heart like I was parting with a good friend and thought to myself that maybe they'll play a similar role in another lifetime, but for now this role is over for this one incarnation.