Left with a feeling of doom

[Steppingfeet]

Hello Rempi, I'll try to explore your conundrum through the metaphor of schooling. [Disclaimer: I have a hard time making short posts when I sink my teeth into a topic.]


Though there is no correlation between the specific grade numbers in our schools and the densities of evolution in the octave, for ease of understanding let's say that you are a student in the third grade of an elementary or primary school.

Does the teacher tell the students that in the fourth grade they will have every wish fulfilled and that they will exist in a heaven? Do the teachers say that if the students do not successful graduate to fourth grade, they are doomed to repeat life in the hellscape that is the third grade?

Let's assume that these are nice teachers and that they are not applying negative reinforcement. What they would convey is just that the fourth grade is the next grade in the curriculum. If the student does not do their homework and pass the test, then, yes, they may repeat third grade. But the student will have another opportunity to re-do that which they did not do the first time. And another. And another. (I don't know how long someone can repeat a grade in earthly school systems. )

Nothing is stagnant about the school curriculum. Everyday is a day of forward movement, a day closer to completing that particular grade, a day closer to graduation to the next grade *so long as* the student is doing the homework in front of them.

Likewise with the densities of evolution. If we are doing the work of learning to open our hearts to love, to knowing and accepting ourselves, to developing our *intention* to serve others, we will be moving in harmony and partnership with the curriculum.

But if we do not do our homework, we will be given another opportunity, and another, and another, until we rejoin the upward evolutionary trajectory. What pilots this growth? Our free will, meaning your free will.

And when we pass from this life or when the curtains come up on third density, we are not "punished" by a repetition of third density, just as we are not "rewarded" by graduation into fourth density. You yourself, the one known as Rempi, choose what the most appropriate environment for your leaning is based upon your level of development. There is no moral wrongness to repeating third density just as there is no moral rightness to moving onto fourth density.

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Conditions in these two densities are indeed markedly different. The fourth density is much, much less catalytic and painful, so I can see why you would associate fourth density with heaven and third density with hell. Suffering does seem to be intrinsic to the veiled third-density experience, but the variety and depth of suffering that we experience on this particular world we call earth is the result not of a cosmic design process that mandates entities must be miserable in third density, but of humanity's free will choices.

Third density could be "heaven" if we as a group chose to make it so. Indeed, as Jafar was indicating, perception is subjective. With the right eyes, you could see the beauty, the wonder, and the magnificence of this world, even in light of all of its suffering. I've always liked the thought that heaven isn't some other realm in some other time. Heaven is *this world* rightfully interpreted.

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I've been studying the Law of One material for 21 years. I've never made emphasis of the question "Am I going to graduate?" Nor, consequently, have I had anxiety on the matter. The point of polarizing one's consciousness - that is, seek to serve others - is not so that they can get a ticket out of this poophole. (Though I'd love a one-way ticket sometimes.)

Instead and ideally one seeks to serve others because they love others. Because they need to help. Because in empathy, and perhaps a dimly perceived unity, they feel the other's pain as their own. So they bias their consciousness toward service to others. It feels right and good. Service calls the heart of the positive being. That is true whether harvest is a million years from now or tomorrow.

So the focus is not on "will I make it?" or "what comes next?" (intellectually stimulating though such conversation may be); the focus is upon the opportunities for service that exist right now all around you. As Spaced was pointing to, let your greater self plan your next incarnation when the time comes. In the meantime, there is a lot of good work to do here on the ground.

And if you, Rempi, are in a state of spiritual seeking (whether or not reading the Law of One), then you have likely discovered a good deal of love and light inside of you, and with each new layer of self-discovery and self-acceptance, that light shines effortlessly from your being, polarizing your consciousness and lightening our planetary vibration. Keep on shining. Much love.