Left with a feeling of doom

[jafar]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts guys.
Let me tell you this: For the most part, my life is seeking personal pleasure while trying in every possible way to not harm others in the process. Needless to say this is a very poop method of STS, as effective STS comes only from using others.
If I continue on this path I might end up with perfect 50% of polarization

Congratulations.
Just flow as it is, be yourself, every soul path is guaranteed to be unique.
No two soul will share exactly 100% the same path.

What you seek now and what you seek 1, 5, 10, 100, 1000, 100,000 years from now might be different.
But let it flow as it is, and accept the changes when it comes, it will come naturally.

Yet the end path of every soul is actually the same, unification with the infinite.
No matter which path that they took, every child will eventually return to the father's house.