Schizophrenia

[Brandon Gwinn]

I know this is a pretty old thread now, but I wanted to post on it about my own experiences. I don't believe I have schizophrenia. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder but I don't think I'm bipolar either. I've had two major psychotic episodes which each lasted roughly a week or so on and off and left me pretty mentally unstable each time for the likes of a month or more. I believe my episodes were triggered by stress, fear, and a rapid period of spiritual expansion all at the same time which tipped my cracker so much that the cheese slid off if you know what I mean. Lol. The rapid spiritual expansion that helped trigger my first episode I believe was my first contact with intelligent infinity. I was a fundamental Christian at the time and had just learned a radically new perception of the I AM statements found in the Bible which clicked with my soul and opened me to free conscious being. I recklessly abandoned myself to this being and feel that I made contact even though I didn't understand it at the time. I definitely feel that when experiencing psychosis there are spiritual elements involved. It's like your mind is cracked open like an egg and the "yolk" is caught in the cosmic flows all around you, getting somewhat scrambled in the process. Much of what I experienced was delusional I believe but some ideas and images that came into my mind were revelations of the workings of the universe like the flow of energy between polarity in cycles that never end, the unity of it all, that everything is the One, and there need not be any worries about anything, and other things. It was really a breakup of the old system of beliefs that led to a breakthrough in seeking when I found the Law of One. I wish I could understand exactly how the spiritual dynamics of psychosis function. I'm sure it's different in each case.