chat with my inner voice and my awakening

[Foresight]

So why am I seeing these visions?  There has to be a reason for this.  After all, everyone's awakening can be different.Could my seeing these visions be a wake-up call?

 
Hi there, Foresight.
 
The wake-up call theory sound right to me.  Sometimes spirits program harsh events for their incarnations to accomplish the same thing.  Evidently, you decided you didn't need painful catalyst to get your attention.
 
So, what's next?  How does one awaken?
 
Again, some people choose a more severe approach such as depriving themselves of food or comfort or taking on some kind of painful catalyst in order to take their mind off of the apparent world and nudge it into becoming aware of the realm of spirit.  But you might opt for a gentler way to focus your seeking.  Whatever way you choose, as you intensify your desire to know your deeper self, I expect you will get more clarity.  The point, I would tell you, is to become more and more dedicated to service to others or to your seeking or to allowing your personal vibration to soften and resonate more fully with the beauty within you or wherever you can connect with it.  In other words, as you become more dedicated to seeking love, as your being becomes more hungry for your deeper self, I expect that the communication you are having will become more clear to you, it will become more like communion, more like sharing a deeper experience of self.
 
I wish you a wondrous journey.


Oh. and I should add, you might find disciplining your mind a useful thing.
  

I remember my conversations with my spirit guide, or "higher self," as if in a trance state at the breaking points of my life.

I just came from the military. I had applied for a job. But I couldn't find a suitable job for me. I was at the point of being fed up.

My inner voice told me to continue with job applications.

He said that I will find a job and make good money.

He said that I would be rich and I would not have any financial problems.

but he also said the negative aspects that this will bring in his life.

He said I would think money would buy everything.

He said that I would be connected to the material realm.

He said all my good feelings would go away.

I didn't choose the life he told me.

I chose a harder and harder life.

My inner voice said the life I chose was hard

He said I couldn't stand it.

I said I accept any challenge.

I was 30 then.

I wanted to learn about life by having difficulties until I was 39, and I wanted this difficulty to end at the age of 39.

I am now 39 years old. I'm comfortable.

I quit my job when the pandemic started. I am still listening.

But I have to start the life I chose.

I used to live in other people's lives.

Now I have to live in my own life.