02-24-2011, 08:49 PM
(02-21-2011, 06:25 AM)Ankh Wrote: He made a sacrifice in order to help people. He agreed to that. And we don't even see it. That's was sad.
you saw it. and i'm sure he teaches all that are ready. and i'm sure he wouldn't want your bows. since i think the lessons point towards equality.
there are people who think furniture is sexy, i've had my mind broadened by so many freaks. i love diversity, i respect people's bravery to be different, they are true artists creating so much beauty. sometimes someone pushes my boundaries and i feel uncomfortable, but that's another learning experience. i've seen some weird people, but i just feel weirder. and i'm accepting myself slowly. the hardest thing is to accept oneself. i think it's a big lesson. i dunno if i teach anyone else but i try to teach myself, or it's just a big waste. and that would be sad. there's been incredible pain in my life, all due to my difference, and incredible indescribable joy and beauty, all due to my difference. so it's not possible to regret, i think, i just boggle myself, as does life.
someone said it's not your beeswax what someone else thinks of you. that's really hard to remember, when i wonder how many pity me, pity is the most painful to the ego in that regard i think. pity says you are not even worthy of great expectations. pity says i'll never be where you are you lowly cretin. pity makes me angry, but my lesson is in learning not to care what others think of me. if i can accept me and not be ashamed or embarassed by me, pigs can fly. i think i was too ambitious when i came here.:-/ but i take babysteps. it's hard to see the future from afar. i wouldn't have believed the progress i could make 10 years ago, i proved myself wrong.