I need some help concerning my experiencing a type of psychic attack

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The issue for me in dealing with this situation is a difficulty in both feeling love and sending it. This being due to childhood trauma. My every attempt to summon up feelings of love leads to attacks which cause me considerable suffering, thus making it tricky in utilizing the advice given to me in this thread (which I am very grateful for.) I'll be working on this as much as I can. Again, thank you.

This is why I can't emphasize shadow work enough. There are different modalities to do it, but it is basically confronting the past and our past selves and untangling all the attachments (7th ray distortion) via processing fear, guilt, shame, grief, lies and illusion (1th thru 6th ray distortions). This is true healing that allows for a more crystallized 4th ray love as the final armament with the protection from the balanced lower rays.

It's hard to love and feel loved with extreme lower ray distortions.