I need some help concerning my experiencing a type of psychic attack

[Sacred Fool]

However, "you need to find a very deep place within yourself which resonates love unconditionally" is not going to be easy, as I must admit the unfortunate truth that I carry a lot of self hatred, and have struggled in getting rid of it for many years. I assume this will try its best to get in the way. The negative emotion is overwhelmingly sourced from the terror of going to hell as a child (I was raised as a Catholic.) Things occurred in that I felt, as a child, if I loved myself, I would be committing a sin. And thus would be tortured forever. If any one here has any advice for this strong issue of mine, I will be extraordinarily grateful. It has been a lifelong agony.

Exercise Two. The universe is one being. When a mind/body/spirit complex views another mind/body/spirit complex, see the Creator. This is an helpful exercise.

Exercise Three. Gaze within a mirror. See the Creator.

Exercise Four. Gaze at the creation which lies about the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity. See the Creator.

You might inquire within, Cannon, as to what lesson you're working on here with a personal energy structure interspersed with love and hatred.  Perhaps the challenge is to become clear about seeing the Creatrix?

My own path has also been challenging in this regard.  I am susceptible to the Love and Light of Divinity, and yet I have also had a bent towards seeing others (and self) and something other than vessels of this same Light and Love.  It turns out I've had prior incarnations of profound disappointment in humanity, and I sought revenge.  But this led to an ultimate emptiness--something was missing.  That missing something was this same Love and Light as it offered by all, though not always in a mature form.

What your path through this maze will be, I cannot know.  And it's maybe not so helpful to say, here's the outcome (seeing emerging/developing love and light in all of us), now go find it.  It's a funny thing.  It's right there at your finger tips, but as you say, there are so many distractions.  I can only offer you the suggestion that life lived in the state of that awareness just might be worth far more than the trouble it takes to reach it.  Seek conscious awareness of the emerging Light and the Love in all that there is.