Like a misplaced puzzle piece

[sillypumpkins]

Sometimes I feel this way. Like if the world is a giant jigsaw puzzle, I often perceive myself to be a piece of that puzzle that accidentally made it's way into earth's puzzle. I don't feel right. I don't fit here, basically, is the perception.

It's hard being here sometimes. Like, really, really hard. 

Imagine how a puzzle piece might feel, being in a box with a bunch of other pieces that seem to make up a beautiful image. And yet, here I am, just not feeling right. Where do I fit in? I really don't know. There's no apparent answer from my perspective. 

I feel sadness a lot. I've been crying a lot. Being here can be (and often is) tough for me. 

I don't understand a lot of this stuff. It's difficult. I struggle a lot these days. I often contemplate whether this is worth it, and if I should just end it all. Whenever I get close to making a decision, well, my invisible helpers seem to deter me. 

Just wanted to air that out..... it's so heavy these days. I don't mean to be a bummer, I just don't have many people to talk to about this stuff.