Like a misplaced puzzle piece

[sillypumpkins]

I can relate to this on a very deep level, and I have felt like this for years as I've been going through the dark night of the soul.

I won't give you advice, as you haven't asked for it, but I can share what I have chosen to do after feeling the deep alienation and misplacement that you have been feeling.

I've come to understand that while I try to fit in, or constantly try and work out why I feel so different and without purpose, that I only fall deeper out of alignment and feel evermore deserted by God, my guides and my higher self.

Instead I have surrendered to the creator, in a deep and sincere way, and I've told him quite openly that I have no idea where I fit in. I've asked that the creator fit me in however he pleases. To use me as a vessel and I will allow whatever he has planned for me. This is a moment by moment choice, to surrender that is. I've relinquished all of my ideas of what I should be doing and I've stopped being angry/upset that I feel so lost in this world.

I've since started to feel a whole lot more peace, blockages are being removed from my body, both physically and metaphysically. My mind is gradually calming down. Positive thoughts have begun to arise once more and I have a heartfelt knowing that if I continue this I will be led to a beautiful and purposeful life. It's like the creator and life saying, "you only had to surrender all along".

I hope this helps in someway and thank you for sharing this

Thank you....... you stirred me a bit... my emotional side recognized some truth in your words it seems and I began to cry after reading your post. The simplicity of it all can be so stunning. For some reason, it is hard for me to see how simple it can be, so when I read words like yours, it shakes me in a way. 


And yet..... I still continue to do (and not do) all the things that would (or wouldn't) cause me such pain...... or is it as simple as that? That is, doing or not doing certain "things"? I don't know. I often find myself "backspacing" a lot on these forums especially. I type something up, and then I say to myself, "that's stupid, you're revealing a part of your self that you don't want others to see", then I delete my comment and carry on with my life. So I'm just spitballing here. Trying my best not to stifle myself so as to come off a certain way, if that makes sense. That's where I'm coming from with the original post.

Thanks again, friend