Reconstructing

[LeiwoUnion]

Words, or sound vibratory complexes as those of Ra could put it, can hold any meaning they are given. Just look at dialects, or all the different modern, old, and proto languages.

Matador could easily come from the proto persian/arabic meaning of 'checkmate' or 'shah mat' which often is given meaning 'the king is dead'. However the more accurate meaning is probably 'the king is helpless' or 'the king is stumbled'. When added the spanish suffix of 'person', 'doer' or 'action taker', matador perhaps becomes to hold the meaning of 'the stumbled one' or reversed and more grand 'he in whose face one is helpless'.

You may observe from this little linguistic gymnastics presentation how useless human languages actually are in holding meaning. So, my advice is to embrace your formerly chosen forumname in good humor and accept it as part of your unconsciously prepared working here. I mean, all of this discussion would have, shall I say, stayed in the void of potentiation, if you hadn't made this specific choice back whenever. Heh.

That being said, changing the name is of course fine too but it is well to contemplate for the true reasons for any feelings.