05-11-2022, 06:16 AM
I have been fortunate... So fortunate to have the guidance.
I have done much meditation the last few days and with a little catalyst from one of you, I have balanced something that was only revealed to me by coming here and creating the name. The wonders of catalysts and distortions is something that I have fallen in love with. The feelings the emotions the triggers, this distortion no longer is what it was, it feels broken, but still works if you get what I mean. With every balancing comes an abundance of awareness, it is a beautiful thing. Though I begin to question if I manifest a situation (like my name) in order to create a situation that needs balancing.
The last few days have been odd, there is a powerful energy of both light and dark in my area, I presume the world, and maintaining balance is taking a need for meditation. Manifestation is very strong and seems to get stronger as the energy grows. But, all manifestations have been extremely positive.
I write slowly because there is much interference from my mind, my ego is strong, and writing while meditating is a difficult challenge.
I feel keeping the name has become important to me, and that is before I read your comments. Flofrog I can feel your warmth and compassion, thank you for your encouragement, I know I am not alone. And LeiwoUnion your words resonate with me in a very positive way. If you ever get to read my story you may find every one of your interpretations is actually correct, I hope one day I can discuss with you just how intuitive/accurate/descriptive your reply is to my experiences. The most resonant name is "the stumbled one". The interpretation 'he, in whose face, one is helpless' is a perfect description of me in my past looking in the mirror.
I will write a new story, and I will add the old one at the end. It will be long, and it is something I may not finish as in it may be an ongoing thing, and I will write a little at a time. I will make every effort to write from the open heart, and I will distinguish that from the ego. I sense that may not be necessary because many of you have the awareness to see. My wish is I can be completely open. Something I have never done before.
Diana, I sent them (llresearch) an email to delete it but it is no longer my wish. They have yet to reply, I can only hope they ask for confirmation first. Either way, I will remake new that which was. (Again, something relevant to my life).
There have been times since me waking up where the feelings both physical and spiritual have been so strong, the love one feels so powerful, tears come. I feel that now, again.
May you all feel what I am so fortunate to feel. Perhaps in some time/place I can show you...
I have done much meditation the last few days and with a little catalyst from one of you, I have balanced something that was only revealed to me by coming here and creating the name. The wonders of catalysts and distortions is something that I have fallen in love with. The feelings the emotions the triggers, this distortion no longer is what it was, it feels broken, but still works if you get what I mean. With every balancing comes an abundance of awareness, it is a beautiful thing. Though I begin to question if I manifest a situation (like my name) in order to create a situation that needs balancing.
The last few days have been odd, there is a powerful energy of both light and dark in my area, I presume the world, and maintaining balance is taking a need for meditation. Manifestation is very strong and seems to get stronger as the energy grows. But, all manifestations have been extremely positive.
I write slowly because there is much interference from my mind, my ego is strong, and writing while meditating is a difficult challenge.
I feel keeping the name has become important to me, and that is before I read your comments. Flofrog I can feel your warmth and compassion, thank you for your encouragement, I know I am not alone. And LeiwoUnion your words resonate with me in a very positive way. If you ever get to read my story you may find every one of your interpretations is actually correct, I hope one day I can discuss with you just how intuitive/accurate/descriptive your reply is to my experiences. The most resonant name is "the stumbled one". The interpretation 'he, in whose face, one is helpless' is a perfect description of me in my past looking in the mirror.
I will write a new story, and I will add the old one at the end. It will be long, and it is something I may not finish as in it may be an ongoing thing, and I will write a little at a time. I will make every effort to write from the open heart, and I will distinguish that from the ego. I sense that may not be necessary because many of you have the awareness to see. My wish is I can be completely open. Something I have never done before.
Diana, I sent them (llresearch) an email to delete it but it is no longer my wish. They have yet to reply, I can only hope they ask for confirmation first. Either way, I will remake new that which was. (Again, something relevant to my life).
There have been times since me waking up where the feelings both physical and spiritual have been so strong, the love one feels so powerful, tears come. I feel that now, again.
May you all feel what I am so fortunate to feel. Perhaps in some time/place I can show you...
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