New here and sharing my experience

[flofrog]

Hello Awizeking,, welcome here.
I found your story so moving and so well worded in fact as corresponding words often fail us for what we experience, right ? lol

There were so many lovely views or advices given here. The only thing I have is that a little ego is always a nice thing to keep, since it helped build us at the very beginning so we need a fraction of gratitude to that ego, lol

I loved the way everything appeared to you so simple and so clearly evident somehow, lol. It's because I had the exact same reaction, laughing uproariously
at the end of my small awakening, some years ago. I was driving on a near empty freeway, through a desert area, by a very sunny day and at one point, as I was not driving fast and it was clear of traffic I decided to turn around to look at the view of a far downtown, and this time the view was wild, I could see downtown and way beyond it to the ocean. it was pure beauty , sort of ethereal. I turned back and had this flow o gratitude and suddenly I saw I was one with the palm tree on the side of the freeway, one with the tar stain on the ground next to my car, one with the steel side fence bordering the freeway. I felt this sort of bliss, hard to say another word, and suddenly I started to laugh and laugh, everything was so simple, so much more simple than everything I could ever have thought of and it was like how could you not figure that out . So it is so mirroring what you felt at the end of hat you described, I am nearly laughing at this.

I was walking on air for the next three days and then it slowly faded, but, my goodness, that was so great and so cool. The knowledge that everything is way simpler than we think is a lovely little knowledge to keep I think...

welcome and happy journey here Awizeking,...