Wanderers that are "karmically involved"

[Phoenix]

'Are you living in the light or dancing with the dark'

 
For me, this thread expressed much anguish around the archetype of The Choice.  There is a desire expressed to court the maiden, not just take advantage of her, but then this is "second guessed."  The desire is to have a more meaningful connection, but this is answered by feelings of betrayal.  The desire is to move to the heart, but what is gained is the crown of thorns.  Fulfillment is sought in love, but what is reflected back is distance, failure and emptiness. 

I'd say this is a very challenging courtship.  It's maybe not so easy to pick the love out from the fertiliser, nor to find the pathway to the heart from amongst the many avenues leading nowhere?  Even so, the heart is there, nearly in plain sight, oddly enough.  In fact, this fact is what makes the situation all the more poignant....like a parched wanderer in the desert so close to the source of water................

Yes, that is very beautiful, I might write it in a notebook somewhere! It is also the archetype I have wondered about since I came off conspiracy and went over to dream interpretation while I knew her.


She also faced a similar choice in that she chose my cousin over me though, and maybe her experience in some ways was similar. Had she stayed a friend to me she would not have lied like she did. She chose my cousin. She was very like a maiden though in that there was a deep, deep femininity and vulnerability to her. She was a Pisces.


Since coming back to the Law of One, having the solitude of working from home and keeping up with the meditation. I have started to become more psychic and I feel like I am able to sense her sometimes in these meditations, and speak to her a little. This is also good is that I speak 'to' her. I have a dialogue which might not be the same with a medium. Of course I am not sure about this one completely and it may be more prudent to not trust such vague sensations. The benefit of the medium of course is that they would have experience in these realms.


I intuitively knew, it seems obvious to me, where to come to get some answers. I feel often the reason we can't get to the truth of things is because things we think up, answers we think up, and don't even realise, block everything that we might receive from the universe.


The funeral is next week.