New Age Spiritual Movement Frustrations

[Spiritualchaos]

...I may come across as naive, but I am anything but. I understand pain, suffering and sorrow in ways I wish I never did, because I can relate to anyone, in any state of mind, whether they are a murder, rapist, or just someone who is looking for their self worth. My love in unconditional to anyone who wants it.

I do understand much of what you have posted. Brothers and sisters of sorrow indeed, and I am your sister in that. I would only say, aside from continuing to walk your unique path, take care of yourself as well as others. Perhaps you don't hang onto the pain of others or your own pain, but it can accumulate as an aggregate of experience, here in this existence so full of suffering.

It's mitigated and balanced by two things for me: nature, and taking advantage of opportunities to express childlike joy. For example, occasionally I visit people I know, and when I do, I completely give myself over to the situation and engage in whatever they are doing, and laugh and carry on with much silliness. In my natural, private setting, I am very serious and approach life as a mission-oriented person. But we are all different and must do things our own way at any given point in Earth time while we are here. 

Thank you so much for this, as it touched my heart deeply to hear your words. I feel things deeply but I have found so many ways of making it easier for me, and the two things you have suggested are a part of my daily life. I walk around feeling like a raw nerve all the time, so I had to find ways in order to survive over the years. I spend many hours a day sitting outside in nature, gardening, smoking weed (which has been a savior for my peace of mind the last fifteen years) and contemplating. I technically live in the middle of a forest in the mountains (in a small city) so I am blessed with an abundance of nature all around me, just sitting in the front yard of our place I can see the mountains and a couple of blocks away, I get an amazing view of the lake. 

When it comes to childlike joy, I have a toddler who likes to giggle and play silly games with me all day long, so I get put into that mindset often (which is a nice relief for when he’s being defiant and yelling at everything). My partner also seems to single out all the hilarious stuff on the internet, that shares our sense of humor. We tend to be more serious these days, so grounding is important for our whole family, as we are all quite sensitive in our own way.

The last thing that has saved me, is music. I adore music of all kinds, and my son only wants to listen to music, he has no interest in kids shows, pretty much since he was 6 months old. He tries to sing along to the “ooohs” and “ahhhs” in the song, it’s very cute and it fills my heart full of joy. The intensity of emotional expression in music is so beautiful and it always fills me with peace to sing along and feel what they feel.

Thank you for everything you have done to bring love and light to these boards since I have been a part of them, you have always been so positive and welcoming, and I thank you greatly for your service. Love and Light to you dear Sister of Sorrow.