Channeling.

[Phoenix]

We all experience uniquely, this is certain, we each pattern our attention so uniquely, so that certain things may capture your attention, while other things capture others' attention. I can completely understand and relate to what you have just said, IndigoSalvia. How is it different from what you have had heard from others? This would help me understand more.

My personal experiences are not wild rides through the cosmos, like some report in wanderer stories. They are gentle, loving dialogues. Most often, it is this voice, so gentle, so nurturing, so nonjudgmental. 

But, differences or similarities are not particularly important to me. 

I am tugged in two directions: I want to know with certainty what I am experiencing, as if that will give me permission to step into it more deeply, to practice it. On the other hand, I am likewise called to release that desire to understand, explain ... to practice in faith and to just walk deeper into the bliss and euphoria.

There is something to be said for not trying to move too quickly imo. It can make one a bit of a condescending hypocrite I think to not accept where we actually are in our progress. I don't try and fix myself in a way to make myself feel more enlightened. If I have a bad day then I have a bad day. That's just how I feel.

Mm.. yes, I understand the sentiment and the feeling, it is a wondrous state to work yourself into, it seems to return everything to right inside our systems. Making the logs, either by video, pure audio and/or manually transcribed as so important. Watching, listening, reading them back to ourselves. Not just following a single session/log, but after a month, looking back at a month's worth of data all at once. Then again at each year. Patterns begin to form. A greater, more in-depth understanding. Dream data is more important than most do imagine. Dream logging everyday, even if no data is reached, noting the time you got to bed and then woke, total hours slept, how you felt when you first woke, any final symbols/hypnopomps you may have caught, etc.. Everyday. You might come by and join us sometime in our group dream log.

Thankyou. However, at the moment the best solution I have to why my dreams are so unrepetantly violent is what David Wilcock has said about 'parallel life experiences'. Just in the past few days I have seen full on Reptilian teeth up close, planned to force an old school friend to rape his mother, and planned to kill a co worker:- That last one was actually the worst because when I plan to kill, or have had killed, people in my dreams before the intention always felt so authentic. 


I did enjoy reading through your groups dreams though, I used to think everyone had insanely violent dreams like me but apparently not. I tried to see if anything of mine correlated but I don't think it did. I did used to have a friend who would tell me his dreams occasionally and one of them he told me he saw an 'agent' like you described in your yesterday dream. I wondered if this was a reflection of fourth density reality where there is still something of the 'matrix' in the environment but who really knows?