The Dream Thread

[Ankh]

The best explanation I can come up with is that I constantly draw in energy from my surroundings (severe empathy and all) until it builds up and explodes. I'm doing my best to create shields and release the energy, and it happens a lot less than it used to, but it never fully goes away. It's annoying.

Ahktu, it's just a theory that I have, but here it is. We are talking about catalysts that hits us, but maybe a big part of being Wanderer is being a catalyst yourself. And a part of being here on Earth is to process negative energies through ourselves tranforming them into light/love, even though it's nothing we are aware of consciously. I've had a humble experience today. My friend called me up and we talked a little bit. Then she got quite for a little while. Last two times we got together her mother was dying and she had really hard time. We spend two weekends together with our families but during the first time it felt like I could cut through the air. We had really great time so it was not that, there were no heavy discussions, we kept it light being with our families. But the next day I felt how everything inside my skin was crawling. I couldn't handle much more as it felt like I was being skinned alive. So we headed home after a while. Next time I knew that I could expect the same reaction in myself, but it was not that severe, but still noticeable. Anyway, that evening I decided to talk about something near and dear to me, to "lighten up the air" so to speak, and that was the first time I told a friend about my thoughts being Wanderer, RA and all that. That info was still kind of new to me then. Today she thanked me for being there, and said that after our last talk about Wanderers she kind of lit up. And was actually uplifted for three whole days. How about that, I thought, and I was pondering whether I should talk about such stuff with others?

Anyway, what I mean is that maybe, we are walking and talking catalysts ourselves – in the meaning of processing "the air", ie energies, through ourselves, and let out more cleaniness/light/love. Well, you know how catalyst work in the car. Though we are not aware of it, I still believe that it might be so, and specially after that whole thing with my friend. That as empaths, Wanderers, or whatever we are, we clean up. Just a theory though.

And you, my friend, might have chosen specially difficult pre-incarnative task in the positive sense. Before we incarnated I was probably chicken little and agreed to only 2% of my personality being a catalyst and processing the "polluted" air, but you were probably like – what?? Nooo man I want 40%! Using touch of light here!