The Dream Thread

[Ocean]

i was just thinking about how i get these negative energies that i sort of transmute by going through and riding the pain of it, and it sort of becomes clean after that, like it doesn't leave but it changes, and then it's ok. and i wonder if it's my feelings or if i'm transmuting something that floated by, or that wanted my services. maybe it's both cuz of course i have to deal with my own stuff. all that empath sponge stuff resonates with me on an intuitive level, that we pull in negative energies because we can clean them. a part of me thinks that's just egotistical crap and i want to be useful or something so i'm making all this stuff up. but that's how it feels to me when i'm experiencing it, that i'm cleaning, loving and transmuting. and i hope i'm right.

however i don't have seizures, that sounds extreme, so i wouldn't put it all down to clean up, make sure it's nothing medical i'd say. you don't deserve to be beaten just to clean someone's bad day. and like Dr. Michael Smith says, we don't always need to use the gift we came with, it's not an obligation to vacuum everyone's crap all the time, and we must shield ourselves. i still haven't gotten that figured out though, but thought i'd mention his thoughts on that in case it is an empathy issue.

i do have health issues right now, so maybe you guys are right. i have odd skin inflammations, and stuff all over my body, i'm gonna try tea tree oil. my diet is also poor because i refuse to eat anything inorganic, and it's hard for me to devote a lot of time to food. maybe my body is complaining i'm treating it poorly. thanks for the help.

also, could you expand on the integration of all bodies? i'm sure i have trouble with that. maybe there's something in the Ra texts i need to read on that.