03-12-2011, 05:28 PM
We seem to be going through much of the same thing, Ocean. I've always hated accepting help from people, and I hate admitting I'm wrong. Basically, anything that will make me feel weak. And so often it seems like when I do swallow my pride enough to apologize the apology is just brushed off or ignored.
For most of my life I've been a big bucket of depression. No matter what I do I can't seem to make myself happy, even though I have everything I could possibly want. I still feel like crap about 80% of the time, and I feel like I'm running *out* of time. How can a person that is depressed and unable to handle the meager challenges they face in life graduate? Especially when graduation is right around the corner. I'm so afraid I'll have to come back here and do it all again. That's a fate worse than death for me. I can't stand to forget one more time...I just can't. Having these half-memories is painful enough.
I doubt this helps much, but I just wanted you to know you're not alone.
For most of my life I've been a big bucket of depression. No matter what I do I can't seem to make myself happy, even though I have everything I could possibly want. I still feel like crap about 80% of the time, and I feel like I'm running *out* of time. How can a person that is depressed and unable to handle the meager challenges they face in life graduate? Especially when graduation is right around the corner. I'm so afraid I'll have to come back here and do it all again. That's a fate worse than death for me. I can't stand to forget one more time...I just can't. Having these half-memories is painful enough.
I doubt this helps much, but I just wanted you to know you're not alone.