The Dream Thread

[Ocean]

i dream i was on a bus, i was an old lady. and there was another old lady that i was friends with. and there was also some element of danger. and i had to hurry. then later i was at a store with my friend, but i was young. and it was some other person with me. and we went to some department store and again there was this hurry element, then there was this big sprawling facility, that was grey white. it had yucky dirty bathrooms and young people everywhere. they were drinking beer. there was grass outside and people chilling. it was a party. we were being chased and we wanted to blend in. so we went with these nerds. we climbed this hill and somehow ended up on top of a pole, we were high up and the chasers were down below. i lost my glasses, my gloves, i whispered to my friend to tell me if the girl we had seen was still down there. when we came down the kind nerds brought me my glasses and gloves and but then the guy who was chasing us appeared and choked me with his hand, he had promised to let us leave but he wanted to sleep with me. i tried to get out of his hold as i'm very ticklish, i'm insanely ticklish so if someone tried to choke me i'd probably punch them from the sheer tickling. i got really mad. lol then i woke up with my neck still ticklish.

i think it means i have a part of me that's so afraid that the rest of me avoids it, and sometimes it gets me in a chokehold. that actually happened last night, i was afraid of something and the fear felt awful.

my dreams have two things, i'm always on a bus, and i'm always high up, they keep repeating. the bus represents a moderate vehicle, while being high up should be something good. but i'm never moving there. i'm always just up. i wonder what that means.