LOOOL!!!! Ahktu!!! I think that we are all adults here too, but the mods should have the last word. 
I was trying to achieve that (whatever ray??) state I had the second time last time too, but the energy is actually intelligent! How about that?
It didn't work and as soon I was able to relax and "enjoy the ride" so to speak , I felt how it surrounded our beings and then rised upstairs to my orange level. I don't know what brother Ra was mumbling about regarding orange ray, but as I dug myself through the possession issues I felt its rising pierced some point in orange nexi where I came in touch with my other self - or how I was in my own 3D long time ago. I am not that person anymore, neither am I the person I am in this life, but as I reached the core of that other self it was like "aahhaaaaa, now I see". I don't know if it's all true, but what is true is that I came in touch with myself, got seated in that nexi. I don't understand everything yet though, therefore this thread. To be continued...
Monica - when I first saw your question, I got stunned... Good one! Yes what did I try? I think that it's more about that I changed. My perspective is changed and there is a shift in consciousness. Plus some of what I've learned in meditation can now be practiced in sexual transfer act. I don't know if someone can relate to it, but after 12 years together sex can be pretty boring. You do it in the same way, with the same person and yawn! Another thing is that we wear masks, costumes. It's like a shell that is not a real you. The challenge is to take of that mask and get completely naked with another self. Like ahktu put it
I perceived it as something scaring first, but now - wooaw let's have some more fun!
EDIT: Ahktu, when I wrote "dug myself through possession" issues I meant this: when we were making love I saw images of him being a mighty 4D man in my inner sight. Then there were thoughts of being unfaithful with him to my "true soulmate" whoever that is, and then thoughts went into direction that we are all unfaithful all the time every time we incarnate and enter the veil of forgetfulness. So what? We are all One, so it technincally impossible to be unfaithful as we all are going to merge with all sooner or later. At that point I came in touch with my Higher Self and was feeling what It felt, staying reeeally humble in this experience as we two experienced something great here, so he appeared again as 4D powerful mighty man (yummy), and after that there was this energy swirl that embraced us and ended up at that orange point that I was talking about.
I was trying to achieve that (whatever ray??) state I had the second time last time too, but the energy is actually intelligent! How about that?
It didn't work and as soon I was able to relax and "enjoy the ride" so to speak , I felt how it surrounded our beings and then rised upstairs to my orange level. I don't know what brother Ra was mumbling about regarding orange ray, but as I dug myself through the possession issues I felt its rising pierced some point in orange nexi where I came in touch with my other self - or how I was in my own 3D long time ago. I am not that person anymore, neither am I the person I am in this life, but as I reached the core of that other self it was like "aahhaaaaa, now I see". I don't know if it's all true, but what is true is that I came in touch with myself, got seated in that nexi. I don't understand everything yet though, therefore this thread. To be continued... Monica - when I first saw your question, I got stunned... Good one! Yes what did I try? I think that it's more about that I changed. My perspective is changed and there is a shift in consciousness. Plus some of what I've learned in meditation can now be practiced in sexual transfer act. I don't know if someone can relate to it, but after 12 years together sex can be pretty boring. You do it in the same way, with the same person and yawn! Another thing is that we wear masks, costumes. It's like a shell that is not a real you. The challenge is to take of that mask and get completely naked with another self. Like ahktu put it
Quote:The hard part is completely opening myself and not holding anything back. I let my husband see and experience me for all that I am, all my talents and flaws without shame.
I perceived it as something scaring first, but now - wooaw let's have some more fun!
EDIT: Ahktu, when I wrote "dug myself through possession" issues I meant this: when we were making love I saw images of him being a mighty 4D man in my inner sight. Then there were thoughts of being unfaithful with him to my "true soulmate" whoever that is, and then thoughts went into direction that we are all unfaithful all the time every time we incarnate and enter the veil of forgetfulness. So what? We are all One, so it technincally impossible to be unfaithful as we all are going to merge with all sooner or later. At that point I came in touch with my Higher Self and was feeling what It felt, staying reeeally humble in this experience as we two experienced something great here, so he appeared again as 4D powerful mighty man (yummy), and after that there was this energy swirl that embraced us and ended up at that orange point that I was talking about.