The meaning of being awake

[tx9271]

I feel like I am "awakened". I know in my heart that we are all one. However, I find it hard to fall asleep at night and am usually awake until 3-4am and once I finally do fall asleep I find it really hard to wake up. I find my self wanting to dream more and more. I think it's because I find my dream life to be a whole lot more exciting than my "awake" life,shall I say. I feel as if this society has nothing to offer me anymore. When I read and listen to things about different planets and different races and beings I find myself wanted to explore these planets and meet these beings! I was a big fan, and still am, of sy-fy movies and TV shows and I want to actually do the things they are doing at times. Exploring different worlds and have new adventures to experience! That really gets me excited but then depressed because I feel like it will never happen to me. I also don't know if I'm "awakened" enough if that makes any sense.

Well those are some of my thoughts. Can't wait to hear back!
Thanks,
Tom