Sexual energy transfer

[Ankh]

I suppose that I've now touched that green ray transfer. The funny thing is that my husband is not into spiritual stuff at all. He is a true atheist and to summarize his belief system - he thinks that lights go out for good when we die. And still, every time we are connecting since the shift in my consciousness occured regarding sexual energy transfer, he is very receptive to the thoughts and state of mind that I am in. I don't want to go into the details here, but to mention a few things he for instance exploded when I connected to the One, and yesterday he was very gentle and sensitive when I connected to the green ray. Regarding green ray, first I felt warm, deep instreamings into the green nexi. They were like intimate, tender caress preparing my heart. And after a while there was like a lightning that struck me. This lightning pierced right through me (and him in my view) and I felt pure love beyond chemical/bodily processes. It was deep "love" beyond body. I guess that it was the spiritual love, that connecting us all together into what is called a unity beyond names, shapes, memory and so on. I got scared from it. It felt so strong as I would actually be struck be lightning in reality, and though I was fascinated by it, I was a bit cautious to dive in that. Why? The first thing that I thought of was - eeeh, that's what stopping me from merging with this Earth, and that's what stopping me from completely surrender to these people here and my family. The loss... This dive might bring a loss... Loss of something that has been constant present in my life, and might be the reason for me incarnating here... My distortion towards my true family... I can't surrender to love of all, because my family would fade away in it's intense bright colours... But at least I understand it now... Cool that is was sex that made it all that clear to me...