03-24-2011, 09:01 PM
I have on a few occasions fallen to the floor in surrendering my ego to the greater flow of love that I refer to as God. I fall naturally because its my way of my body and mind surrendering to a control outside my body. That control being the body becoming one with the Self.
It's hard to say ego because it's really meditating or letting go of any thoughts that come to mind, and when I do that with my body laying down like I was dying, I accept my faults and mistakes and embrace them...which relieves me spiritually and mentally, but physically as well. My legs have always been shaky when having worried or anxious thoughts, but I don't feel that fear or that pain stored up inside them anymore. Releasing the fear mentally, releases fear stored in the body. The fear that sticks to your cells, as they are intelligent energy as well. They feel light after this process of 'ego death,' as I see it.
The process is straining after a while. I always feel like I want to puke when I'm that much closer to giving up egotistical control (thought processes aligned with fear), but I've been unable to actually vomit. Not time yet I guess
I was wondering if anyone else as had such an experience where they were trying to give up the self to become the Self. There's NO REASON WHATSOEVER to have fear control your life. I want to feel naked again, like, nothing I do is to be ashamed of. The light flows within, and fear will be forgotten.
It's hard to say ego because it's really meditating or letting go of any thoughts that come to mind, and when I do that with my body laying down like I was dying, I accept my faults and mistakes and embrace them...which relieves me spiritually and mentally, but physically as well. My legs have always been shaky when having worried or anxious thoughts, but I don't feel that fear or that pain stored up inside them anymore. Releasing the fear mentally, releases fear stored in the body. The fear that sticks to your cells, as they are intelligent energy as well. They feel light after this process of 'ego death,' as I see it.
The process is straining after a while. I always feel like I want to puke when I'm that much closer to giving up egotistical control (thought processes aligned with fear), but I've been unable to actually vomit. Not time yet I guess
I was wondering if anyone else as had such an experience where they were trying to give up the self to become the Self. There's NO REASON WHATSOEVER to have fear control your life. I want to feel naked again, like, nothing I do is to be ashamed of. The light flows within, and fear will be forgotten.
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