He Who Was Not

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It is strange, you know, having been so powerful for so long, and now I am weak, in poor health, am dollar-less and in constant depression, but this is just a mask, a shell that must needs express my inner personality of transformation.

I thought about you when I read the below Q'uo session from September 23, 1990:

The goal of spirit is not happiness, for that suggests a static, unmoving self, comfortable, and unchanging. Evolution suggests continual change, continual new learning, and continual dropping off of that which is no longer helpful in the process of spiritual evolution. Thus, in order to distract them, or in some way focus them away from the mundane and everyday world, many entities choose to incarnate with illnesses, diseases and unhealthful situations of mind also, that are deemed necessary by the self and the greater Self, in order to give to the pilgrim the best possible chance of learning the lessons, of having the realizations and the transformations occur, that you yourself felt were needed.

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When preincarnative choice has given to you a difficulty, have faith that you are a spirit advanced enough to participate in your own destiny, that occurrences do not happen simply by chance, that the seeming poverty, the seeming limitation, the seeming difficulty, the seeming illness, is also a forthright aid in setting up a circumstance in which a lesson of love can be learned under adverse conditions.

Full session:

http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._0923.aspx

I think that there must be a third path, the invisible path between the other two, Service to the One, the trinity resounds here with me. Mathematically, as a proportion it could be expressed a + b::a + (a+b), beautiful! The Three, in the Two, in the One! They say it is best to play to your strengths and I can ramble endlessly.

I've heard that before, from other Wanderers, but I think that they confused it with something else, because though they regarded themselves to be "neutral" they still served everyone around them. Maybe the concept of serving/helping each other is confused with some other concept from denser realms that we don't remember right now? I mean if someone asks for your help right now upon this Earth, don't you put your personal problems aside for a while to offer that help? We all do what we can. Maybe it's enough, just by being here, together, and help each other when it is asked for.