06-09-2011, 05:35 AM
I actually had a WONDERFUL time being out in the city tonight!! I hate the city lol, but I went there after work to buy something and I was just "being" in the moment and I sat across from a woman on the tram who was of the light! I just saw it shining so brightly within her, it was amazing. She was just an ordinary woman of around 50, with an open book in front of her but she wasn't reading, she was staring out the window pondering something and I just saw this goodness and beauty in her face and I was overcome with a feeling of joy. Then I was thinking about her and thinking I wouldn't see another one, and I walked past this homeless man but he had the biggest brightest smile and was just radiating happiness! There was someone standing next to him and he was sitting on a fluffy white mattress/blanket looking thing that I'm guessing the person who was with him might have given him. Then I was so happy that I saw two people who were just shining, and I got on the train to come home and I saw two disabled people, and one was only about 5 years or so older than myself and I felt this overwhelming compassion, and I realised I think if we manage to live past October/December 2012 - whenever it is - that I think the best way I can be of service is to become a carer. I used to work for a quadriplegic woman before my current job (in her business, not as a carer), so I am not a stranger to people with disability, but it wasn't until tonight that I realised there is such a need there for not only physical assistance but also the emotional/spiritual assistance of pure love.