2009.03.28 Polarizing STO, Merkaba, Hallucinagens, Oscillation Creating Inner Planes

[xlsander]

the only thing that always gives me a hard time to grasp or to deal with is if it involves others. for example i might be disappointing someone i love like my mom or my dad with the choices i make in life - knowing it is all an illuison and "all is well" - however they are not convinced all is well - and neither will they ever accept me saying that - especially when my actions involved something which had impact on their lives - either with intention to do that or by accident ... so my inner struggle wouldn't be with that i don't believe that everything is well (for me) - but that my loved ones don't and will not understand and share my point of view (catalyst) - which again would makes me very sad if i had to to move away from them in consequence - either because they do not want me around anymore or because they are hurt by my "perception of reality" etc etc - all i can then do is again affirm to myself all is well and it seems to be my (subconscious?) will or the creator's or "karma's" (catalyst) to have me be in such a situation with someone i value and love the most...(and i won't be able to get back through to them before we meet on a soul level in time space again) ... anybody getting my point?