07-26-2011, 02:34 AM
Okay ... I'm hearin' you guys ... this is exactly the conversation I hoped to have ... thanks. Been focusing most of my attention on the upward movement ... untie-ing the knots, clearing the way. My initial spontaneous activation came in 92 ... it wasn't until years later I realized what had happened. In '97 is when I really started to wake up ... flipped my whole life around ... just nothing in my life made sense. It wasn't my life ... changed my name, everything. I just wasn't the person who had created this weird life. And the big thing energetically there was my heart opened. Exploded, actually. I remember this burning desire to hug everybody! If I didn't give this energy away I was gonna loose my mind ... so I'd just hug everyone (I was somewhat selective, of course! Part of a lovely community.) ... . I remember I'd look down expecting to see what was coming out -- or wondered at how others couldn't see/feel it consciously! Anyway ... it's been working me ever since in one way or another
I've actually done meditations bringing down cosmic energy, but I think I would have a different take now. I think I'll work on that and report back. Makes sense. Maybe it would be more an allowing/noticing thing. It feels weird to think about manipulating the downward energy, where as the upward energy, it's like it's mine and I can move it where/how I want, even tho it obvously has its own intelligence. Playiing with the downward would be kind of like telling God what to do! Idunno. It will be fun just to watch it. I have noticed that in circulating it, it wants to do the Macrocosmic orbit, all the way down to my feet, rather than just a the root. That's been interesting.
I dig what you're saying, Pickle about getting hit with the realizations about this planet. Things we're so indoctrinated into, then all of a sudden don't make sense ... I played golf in my other life, for goodness sake! eeesh (sorry if you like golf, but it was NOT me!) ....
And Gemini, as a wanderer, I can really relate to jumping in with both feet, taking on as much as we possibly can, then looking around and going, 'uh-oh'. That's so my MO! I never related to the 'I want to go hooooommmmme' thing that seems to be what many wanderers go through .... Feels like I've done this enough to realize that's just torturing myself ... but I CAN relate to biting off more than I can chew! It's getting less and less the older I get, tho. I think I'm learning that lesson! But, the only time I've held back on the energy was when I really did think I would loose my mind .. literally. I asked for a Sat Guru's intervention, and she gave it to me. Smooth sailing since.
Eeeesh ... long one again ... oh well ...
offered in love.
I've actually done meditations bringing down cosmic energy, but I think I would have a different take now. I think I'll work on that and report back. Makes sense. Maybe it would be more an allowing/noticing thing. It feels weird to think about manipulating the downward energy, where as the upward energy, it's like it's mine and I can move it where/how I want, even tho it obvously has its own intelligence. Playiing with the downward would be kind of like telling God what to do! Idunno. It will be fun just to watch it. I have noticed that in circulating it, it wants to do the Macrocosmic orbit, all the way down to my feet, rather than just a the root. That's been interesting.
I dig what you're saying, Pickle about getting hit with the realizations about this planet. Things we're so indoctrinated into, then all of a sudden don't make sense ... I played golf in my other life, for goodness sake! eeesh (sorry if you like golf, but it was NOT me!) ....
And Gemini, as a wanderer, I can really relate to jumping in with both feet, taking on as much as we possibly can, then looking around and going, 'uh-oh'. That's so my MO! I never related to the 'I want to go hooooommmmme' thing that seems to be what many wanderers go through .... Feels like I've done this enough to realize that's just torturing myself ... but I CAN relate to biting off more than I can chew! It's getting less and less the older I get, tho. I think I'm learning that lesson! But, the only time I've held back on the energy was when I really did think I would loose my mind .. literally. I asked for a Sat Guru's intervention, and she gave it to me. Smooth sailing since.
Eeeesh ... long one again ... oh well ...
offered in love.