How do you deal with "home"-sickness?

[Ankh]

I want to be Home now. I don't want to be distant from the people I love. But that's not how this place works. Anybody else want to talk about homesickness? If you have it at all? How you deal with it?

I've suffered from homesickness intensively. Mostly because I remember "home". It's kind of impossible, or non human, to not to miss it then. Then I used to blame this world for being such and such, and judging myself for being such and such. Nowdays it is easier and missing doesn't come in the same intensity or frequency as it used to. Hopefully it is due the inner working I've put into the self. Each day. Just wanted to tell you that. That it's worth to start working, and not only with the inner work, but also with outer work (you know that serving part they keep naging about ). The change doesn't happen over a night. Actually it takes time, but looking back I am stunned over how fast it all happened. Nowdays I can't say that I don't want to be home as I would be lying, but I am not obsessed by this thought as I used to be. And I also feel this duty/honour to be here, and for trying. Regarding love - I am starting to see love in each that I meet. I am starting to realize that you are not distant from people. But I won't be lying to you. I do have the thoughts sometimes about - can I ever find that love that I remember right here and right now? Is it even possible? And I do get ashamed of myself sometimes when I can't find it despite that I am surrounded by love. And I do wonder why it has to be that difficult sometimes, when it used to be so easy. But I am trying. And working. Hopefully doing my best.