My Dark Night of the Soul

[Brittany]

I've been in these types of situations, and the basic truth I've found is that if you continuously focus on the negative, thinking of everything that can go wrong, you will continuously find yourself in a negative situation where everything goes wrong. You are creating that reality for yourself.

If you focus on what you are thankful for and all the ways things could go right, you will start finding yourself in favorable circumstances where you have much to be thankful for. I'm not saying everything will be right overnight, but consistently looking at the negative will lead you to a consistent dark night of the soul. I spent nearly all of my adolescence swimming through similar circumstances, and much joy I could have experienced was lost due to my own inability to see the good in the world.

Just breathe and let that tight knot of emotion come loose and flow. I get a "bunched up" feeling in your energy, as if you are pulling everything very close to yourself, terrified of letting go. There is an enormous amount of tension. I think some deep relaxation techniques would be very useful to you right now, helping you to clear your mind and focus on a positive plan of action.

I know all of this probably sounds very blase, but in my life it has equaled nothing but truth. Let the love of your brothers and sisters here ease that pain and lift you up. It will get better.