My Dark Night of the Soul

[kycahi]

I was in a really depressed mood that day and the world was grey. I caught his eye and I saw how he was smiling and emitting positivity and his eyes were incredibly bright blue and that caught me off guard - like "jeez! here I am depressed as can be and the homeless guy is showing me the way".

Very good information, Meerie! I was depressive most of my life and only thought that I was perennially tired or sleepy. I usually wore a neutral face or a frown. One day something clicked in me and I decided to smile to strangers and acquaintances. Most of them smiled back, even though many dropped the smile even before they were out of my view.

In a short while, my smile stopped being a "face" and became my natural, felt-right appearance. I felt happier and realized that I can be one of those who spreads happiness to others. I felt a new personal power from that. Before, I was a "victim," but now a positive force that can be more like what a Wanderer should be, IMO. So go ahead and pretend to be happy until you become happy. "Fake it until you make it!" (from 12-Steps, I think)

I take supplements and meds for the depression, and am grateful for them. Side effects are minimal for me right now, thank One.