My Awakening. Or Grand Delusion. You Choose.

[Tenet Nosce]

This will be my own wanderer awakening post. I came across the Ra material in 1994/1995, and identified myself as a 5D wanderer based upon the information provided by L/L, and especially the below quote from the material:

The fifth-density Wanderer is one who is not tremendously affected by the stimulus of the various rays of other-self and in its own way offers itself when a need is seen. Such entities are not likely to engage in the, shall we say, custom of your peoples called marriage and are very likely to feel an aversion to childbearing and child-raising due to the awareness of the impropriety of the planetary vibrations relative to the harmonious vibrations of the density of light.

Ever since I identified myself as a wanderer, my life has been a series of intense seeking as to the proper way to deal with this information. Including, but not limited to, deeply questioning if IN FACT I am a wanderer... or if I am deluding myself into thinking so out of some unresolved ego issue. Also, of course, deeply seeking as to what forms of service would be appropriate for one such as myself.

I was initially surprised by the amount of negativity that was directed at me in other forums, for simply wanting to discuss that I might be a wanderer. Some seemed extremely offended that I would identify as such, and to the point where I was made to feel that it was "wrong" or even "dangerous" for a wanderer to "come out" as such.

My observations:

Some people seem to be very upset that even the concept of wanderers was introduced in the material. There seems to be this idea that the very concept of wanderers is divisive, because it is causing seekers to question whether or not they themselves are wanderers.

Some people seem to think that the worst possible thing a seeker could do is identify themselves as a wanderer as it would be the epitome of self-aggrandizement.

Some people with self-esteem issues seem to be triggered to the max anytime the word "wanderer" gets thrown into the mix. I can only guess that they are envious of wanderers because their self-esteem issues prevent them from seeing that they may be a wanderer themselves.

Some people are mostly quiet on wanderers- but come out of the woodworks dancing with delight whenever the concept is forwarded that wanderers must soon die and leave this world. Apparently in their view, wanderers are the problem, and need to be "eliminated".

Many years have gone by. The seeking remains.

And also the negativity remains. Sadly, I have observed some of the same patterns emerging in my interactions with people on this forum. And this despite that, up until this point, I have been very careful to not publicly speculate on my own wanderer-hood. This is extremely tiring, and needs to stop if only for my own benefit.

Therefore, I want to know: How do people REALLY feel about wanderers? Let's get this all out in the open. Now is the time to move past this. Here is the opportunity. Let me have it.

According to some, I will be dead soon. So this might be your last chance.