My Awakening. Or Grand Delusion. You Choose.

[Tenet Nosce]

I was kind of worried about you for a while there, Tenet, thinking that you were walking around in a belief that you will soon be dead =)

You were correct in your perception, although it is no cause for worry. It was not causing me extreme states of morbidity or depression.

In fact, I regularly contemplate death. I especially consider the death of my loves ones, and this provides me with a keen catalyst to ensure that our relationships become increasingly harmonious and to ensure that I have nothing "left unsaid" to these loved ones, nor they to me.

I also contemplate my own death in various ways. One way which I have found particularly intriguing is to imagine my post-death self in review of this, my current incarnation. As the mind of my future-self scans back through its experience, it will connect with itself at all moments thus perceived as its "past".

Including this very moment. And this very moment. And this very moment.

Therefore it seems conceivable that- being aware that my own future-self is right now reviewing this very moment in which I am experiencing- it may be possible for a certain exchange of information to pass from the "future" to the "past" relative to the "present". This is extremely intriguing, and with immediately practical applications.

But to address your comment more directly. Thanks for your concern, but I am actually doing just fine. And getting better! My mental meanderings into the realm of the death experience do not involve thoughts of suicide- if by any chance that was part of your concern- although I have deeply contemplated suicide in the relatively distant past and found it to be an untenable proposition which no perceivable positive outcome.

Not that I know what will happen either, but my personal belief doesn't provide any catalysts to me upon this subject (anymore).

If you feel so inclined to share, publicly or privately, as to your personal beliefs on this matter, I would be keenly interested to know as I have observed you, in my interactions with you on this forum, to be consistently thoughtful, respectful, intelligent, well-timed, and emotionally available. I appreciate our interactions and would enjoy more of them.

Thank you also for the Q'uotes. I have previously read this session, however a revisit is both helpful and timely. I also find it intriguing with respect to a couple of obscure points:

The reason that we say this is that each of you won his or her way into the earth plane [at the time of] the harvest.

We have again a [bracketing] near the word harvest. I would be curious to know what, exactly, Q'uo did say here.

You have, among you on Planet Earth, sixteen different archetypal minds.

Twenty-one archetypes and sixteen archetypal minds. This is very intriguing.

Many there are who wished to have incarnations upon Planet Earth at this time, either to help raise the consciousness of Planet Earth with their love, or to do the work of third density in achieving a satisfactory balance between love and wisdom, love and power, or wisdom and power.

I recall noticing here that Q'uo was using the triad of "love", "wisdom", and "power". In contrast, Ra spoke more in terms of a duad of "love" and "light". This is fascinating.

Your experience will always overwrite the parts that make up the sum of what you observe.

This just made my crown chakra pop.

Speaking more broadly:

...Others approach the problem of lifting consciousness from its moorings in third density by reading and attempting to assimilate the gathered wisdom of all religions and all cultures, all systems of lore and myth. And although the scholar’s way often stays within the head, rattling around, filling the mind’s closets and shelves with too much information, the wisdom seeps down into the heart of the scholar and pulls him forward. There are as many ways to approach the evolution of mind/body and spirit as there are people.

Ah, yes. In recognizing the insatiable nature of my mind, this has been a consciously chosen path of mine for quite some time. It is, in fact, what originally brought me to the Ra material.

Although I have experienced the benefits of meditation, exercise, and eating well, I have not found these to be as effective due to the incessantly questioning nature of my mind. No sooner do I actively take up these practices, then I feel drawn to deeply investigate all the varying methodologies, comparing them, and attempting to draw a synthesis from the best of all methods. Nevertheless, even these efforts have been fruitful to varying degrees, and I now meditate, exercise, and eat well more often than ever before.

Tabernacling has been rather difficult for me, except when I have had ample time to "wind down" in a natural setting, such as a rainforest. Interesting that "going within" should have so much to do with external environment.

There is also one session where Q'uo address the concept of Harvest and the dates, where I believe they state that 2011 will be no different from 2012, or was it 2013?, and that life will go on as usual. But I can't seem to find it now. (You posted somewhere, if my memory serves me well, how to search for specific sessions.)

Yes, here is the Q'uote:

Third-density Earth is an Earth whose light is waning. While it will remain third-density, it will no longer support third-density entities in their seeking of the truth. Thusly, third density is shortly to become inactive, we would say, within three or four hundred of your years beyond 2012. Thusly, 2013 upon your planet will look very much like 2012 upon your planet. However, you will find that your population of entities grows more and more interested and fascinated with the reparation of the Earth and the healing of what you call your Mother Earth or Gaia.

Interestingly, I recently referred to this session, as it contains two queries in reference to the veil. One of which is my own.

Even more interestingly, I note that the query I glossed over when reading this the first time with respect to the Significators might currently be significant. Unfortunately, I must depart for an appointment and so must come back to this later.

With love and light, brother!

And wisdom and power!