The mysterious nature of time

[AnthroHeart]

Confused, I'm learning more each day. What seems to make sense one day is overshadowed with what I learn the next. At this current point in time, I'm experiencing ripples more strongly, but much more controlled. I used to have fear when one would squeeze on me, but now I've become a lot more objective. I can step away from my body while still in it, sort of separating my mind a bit so that it allows the vibrations to come and work as needed. So now I just allow the ripples to move me as they would.

So when let's say I look at a piece of erotic art. It immediately produces an emotional response. I can take this sexual energy and move it upwards into higher chakras, in a sense looking at this art through the eyes of love, wisdom, and indigo (where then I realize it's illusion). At the moment of emotional response, a strong series of ripples/waves is formed that slosh my field back and forth. Instead of fearing, I allow it to happen, and they settle down. Then I find myself that much more still in the face of catalyst. So then, the most arousing piece of artwork I can find can be taken to baseline where I don't have an emotional response to it. It's not that it no longer is interesting, it's that I don't produce a strong response to it.

Same with things that we find horrific, such as the images at rotten.com for instance (don't look there if you're squeamish). Being able to look at these produces substantial catalyst, which when you allow, the ripples will settle down and you'll find stillness, both among immensely erotic art, as well as horrific imagery.

I'm still working on stillness amongs these extremes, but I just let my field do it's thing with a certain detachment.