The Dream Thread

[Brittany]

Thanks, Eddie. No, I haven't read any of the Castaneda stuff...I've got a pile of books on my reading list. I will try to get hold of them, though. Probably will have to order them from the internet. I do manage to lucid dream on occasion, though it isn't that consistent. A lot of times I reach a sort of "halfway" point where I am not so much lucid dreaming as acutely aware in my dreams, realizing that something significant is taking place.

I know my left brain is capable. I just have a hard time balancing it with unconditional love, feeling, and all that other wonderful, "free" stuff the STO polarity involves. Half the time my analytical mind tells me that the STS path is the more logical of the two, so I've come to see that side of me as something that will get me in trouble. Also, acknowledging that I am "smart" brings about the catalyst of arrogance. I can't seem to both accept my own high intelligence and be humble about it, so I end up not acknowledging it at all and portraying myself as unintelligent. I suppose I've let my Ego run unchecked for far too long...it's practically taken over, but I feel like I have been making very successful steps lately in balancing it all out and entering into a more "whole" state of being.